Saturday, 24 October 2015

The ultimate decision?

I have a sort of a brainstorm on my own. I am trying to erease all of my doubts. I feel like I decided and there is nothing to have reservations about, but... life is difficult in principle and I want to make it much tougher. Does it have any sense?

Of course, it has! The whole thing we are supposed to do is to follow our dreams and to make them come true. Even though we are exhausted  and the one and only thing we want to do is to sleep through our lives. Do not give up!

I have one decision to make... Which of these two songs could be better for me to sing. Which one is more demanding or which one is more moving? Or maybe... you know any musical songs..? But not 'Singing in the rain', please. ;) Can you recommend them? I must make a repertoire.

A repertoire? For what? The answer is very simple, but not obvious. I decided to take part in the exams to the drama schools. A few ones. There are many great drama schools in Poland, but they are not in the city I live in.

I must practise a lot. Those exams are so demanding. If I want to succeed, I need to learn many texts by heart, work out, sing a lot and practise doing a splits, even. So it is nothing shocking for my friends when they visit me and see me leaning against the wall and yelling, muffling or breathing aloud. I am completely tired because of working out day by day... I have no strength to do anything more. But who said that all is going to be simple? Dreams hurt.

I wake up every day feeling better. I know I am closer and closer to my purpose, step by step. And I also feel better, because I take care of my spine. I can see only advantages!

I must try to practise some melodies from my notes... I hate it. Notes are like little dark monsters, for me. I do not understand them. They scream to me something, but I cover up my ears and I hum a childish song. Bad, bad notes!

Friday, 23 October 2015

Out of the blue

I was wondering such a long time what I should write about. And I have yet to crystalize the subject of my thoughts. But... Today I have discovered one thing which made me utterly obsessed with that. That good has inspired me so I am feeling like I can start creating something. I do not know really, what. I know only one thing: I am on the new way to my brand new life which I have been dreaming about. Please, keep your fingers crossed for me.

I am sure you all know her. She is back. Sensitive, honest, strong and vulnerable. You can dislike her music, her voice... yes, this is your privilege to think on your own way. But you cannot ignore the lyrics of her songs.

She fills my desolation with a kind of hope allowing me to forget, forgive (even myself) and make up my mind to do what I have always wanted to do. This is my breakthrough and I desire to make use of that. If not today, when?

Remember to not postpone your dreams. Do not delay yourself! Work harder and harder. Dreams make you stronger and stronger. If one thing is less important than the second one, leave it behind. The crucial thing I realized recently is that I am my own creator. When I want to do something in the right way, I must focus myself  on that. That is how it goes. Nothing surprising! Be like Adele. Be like you. Rule the world. But do not do any harm to the others. Have a nice weekend! :)

Saturday, 30 May 2015

Try to forget, my true sweetheart.

Sophie's Choice

This was not judgment day - only morning. Morning: excellent and fair.

In my arrogant opinion, a film, which I want to introduce you and involved you in, is clearly amazing. This post is the most spontaneous one, but the most advised too. I have just finished watching this movie and I started to write. I am from Poland, so I feel like I am quite acquainted with the topic of this motion. I wanted to say that I am close... but it would be a lie. It is hard to say something about holocaust, because No one will ever understand Auschwitz (William Styron, Sophie's Choice author). Sophie's Choice, such an incredible film...

It was really dificult to understand to me, because there are a lot of moments when some people talk in german, or in english with very specific accent. Some crucial scenes was spoken in german, so I musted check a few facts out on the Internet.

It is tough to judge how the director/the scriptwriter (Alan J. Pakula) and William Styron treated Poles on the issue of joining in Jews' extermination. So I do not want to focus on it. I am sure that I am not any suitable person to looking for any answer.

Everyone has his own way to go through.
Everyone should have a chance to know his destination.
Everyone has the right to live.

Love. How strong feeling it is. How many things it can fix. Delete. It gives us hope. Although after some occurations we cannot be the same persons. But we can fight for us. Forget. And forgive - ourselves.

Friends... They are our treasures. I have a few (not many and I am glad of it) and I hope that you have yours also. They are like an adhesive between us and our worlds, lives, simple things and activities.

It is very hard film to watch. It is very emotional. It is about a lot of dead loss. And even though we do not experience the things like those in the movie, because we live in such different times, we also have huge problems (It is not my purpose to compare, of course. It is just a draft of human dailiness). And we still can decide about our lives. This is our privilege. And this is our right. Look at the choice which Sophie is forced to make.

Everyone can love.

Five nominations, one Oscar for Meryl Streep(Sophie).
The link to the music below:

P.S. Ah, appreciate the acting of Meryl Streep. It is really worth of your conscience and attention.

Saturday, 23 May 2015

The Ugly Duckling.

Billy Elliot

Tutor: What does it feel like when you're dancing?
Billy: Don't know. Sorta feels good. Sorta stiff and that, but once I get going... then I like, forget everything. And... sorta disappear. Sorta disappear. Like I feel a change in my whole body. And I've got this fire in my body. I'm just there. Flyin' like a bird. Like electricity. Yeah, like electricity. 

Dear Billy, my inspiration from my early youth... I owe the freedom of my dreams to you, really. I will never forget you.

Yep, I have just started with this little confession. To be honest, I have not watched this movie for 6-7 years, I guess. More or less. But I am willing to do it. After my exams, which are aproching inexorably... Oh, I have no strength, I have no time for anything. I want to sleep, watch some movies and just live without carying about learning, working and missing all these things which I really feel lack of.

I am obsessed with ballet, dancers, theatre and these amazing illuminations which embrace the stage. That is why I am coming back to this subject. I associate ballet utterly with freedom. Even though it is connected with really, really hard work. People who dance love it. And I love it too. But I am not any dancer.

When I was a child there were not in my life any good conditions to send me for some dancing lessons. You can think "Why? What was the problem?". But believe me, I felt exactly like Billy. But he got his chance, me - not. And I am quite jelous. I cannot say, that I regret getting that way, on which I am now, but... you know... I cannot estimate, which kind of life could be that better one.

The story like this about Billy Elliot seems quite unbelievable in the environement in which he lived. And it made the plot so fabulous. The father, the passion and Billy in between. Love wins again. And dreams. The father's guts (I am sorry if you do not like words like this) are covered up and struggled. And his son can do what he wants to. In the world like that. In that reality. You must watch it to understand. It is like middle ages' mezalians.

I have so many things to do, so sorry, that is all. I hope I encouraged you in some way to watch this film. It is really worth to watch. It helps to accept a lot of behaviours, feelings, passions and altitudes to life.

Billy: I think I'm scared, Dad.
Dad: That's okay, son. We're all scared.
Billy: Well... if I don't like it (BOXING), can I still come back?
Dad: Are you kidding? We've let out your room.
(straight face then laughter)

3 nominations and 0 statuettes.

Saturday, 16 May 2015

Seduce it! ...and attack it.

Black Swan 

Perfection is not just about control. It's also about letting go.

Maybe it was quite more than one year ago (2-3?) when I was in the opera in Poznań and I watched Swan Lake. Honestly, there were a few my friends who are ballerinas and they gave a really extraordinary show to the public. I have never danced as a ballet master, but I have played in a couple of performances. I was really close to THAT world. The world of ambition, beauty, grandness, brilliance and irresponsibility. And even I still want to take part in this kind of life, I think I know the bright and the dark side of it as well.

But this movie is not only about ambition, although it is such a great aspect. And it is not about illness, despite the fact it seems like to be. And it is not a thing about drugs and their bad influence. Relations and relationships. These both create this bewildering portrait of Swan Queen. Or Nina Sayers, you can choose.

Obsession. Daughter locked up by her Mother. Dependence. Choice. Birds love lakes, but when lakes get cages - they do not. Freedom - that is what we need. That is how we prosper. Any other case - oh, everyone would go crazy!

One thing has really blown my mind: the way of perceiving the world by Nina. And now I am not caring about her visions, because they are created by her imagination and this is very touchy subject. I want you to think about it of course. I think everybody can interpret it in astonishing different way. But I focused on her kind of spending her life. On her steps. I realized, that a big part of people (particularly young ones) share it with her. And they did not know about it, continually. Look at it carefully, quietly and just catch it.

Changes. In her life, inside Swan Queen, inside us. Everything depends on changes. Self-assertion is the key. Remeber, you can count on you, but you have to have someone else to rely on.

Everything she does comes from within, from some dark impulse. I guess that’s what makes her so thrilling to watch. So dangerous. Even perfect at times. But also so damned destructive.

Black Swan was nominated in 5 categories. Received 1. Darren Aronofsky (director) was not really satisfied, I guess. But I love the movie, which won in the most important categories, so it is very hard to me to judge. I know I chose a heavy film today.
But... Who know? Maybe I will share with you a film which concerns quite similar subject next time. But a simpler one, I promise.
Please, approciate my efforts. ;)

Sunday, 10 May 2015

Love, Harry. Love.

Harry Potter

Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.

Some of you would be disappointed, but the rest will be contented (I hope). I do not want to encourage you to watch this movie's series, bacause I think everyone did. People are divided in opinion about that. But my view is that who talks about a film critically, he has watched it.

Friendship, love, intimacy, fun, breaking rules for saving the world, goodness vs. evilness. It sounds trivially, doesn't it? But it has created hundreds of millions of young and elder minds. It is often compared to The Lord of The Ring or The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. I consider there are three the most memorable books and movies based on them, that show the others realities as incredibly as it is possible and as nobody else has shown.

Where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
Of course it is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?

I sometimes find, and I am sure you know the feeling, that I simply have too many thoughts and memories crammed into my mind…

It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.

It takes a great deal of bravery to stand up to our enemies, but just as much to stand up to our friends.
Oh, I really miss Dumbledore and his amazing quotes. I miss each character... When I was watching the last part of this breathtaking series, I was really moved by the plot, but the fact that that was really the end also.

Can you remind yourself Moaning Myrtle, Fawkes, Dobby, Gilderoy Lockhart, Luna Lovegood, Mr. Ollivander? Are you able to forget Hermione Granger, Ron Weasley or Harry Potter? Can you live without them? Their smiles, adventures, ups and downs? If not, let's make a club! ;) You even do not know how I am happy I can write about Harry. I spent my entire childhood on reading, watching and thinking of Harry, magic, goblins, Hogwart... I always wanted to have a wand and a cloak... I wanted to meet some magic creatures, like thestrals... but not spiders at all.
Only two parts did not be nominated. Zero Oscars. And the best music ever. The unappreciated soundtrack. Shame on Academy.

Have you heard about Deathly Hallows?

Music below (full soundtrack!!!):

If you want to see the true measure of a man, watch how he treats his inferiors, not his equals. J. K. Rowling

Saturday, 9 May 2015

Please... look at me... informally.

If you are under the impression you have already perfected yourself, you will never rise to the heights you are no doubt capable of.

 What do you do when you fall in love? I know, it is quite intimate question. But you tear off and throw away all your fetters and strings which keep you in your casual life, don't you? If you agree, or even not, The Remains of The Day (1993) is the movie for you. Everyone should watch it. Every human being needs it.

Work. Work. Love? Work. Erease unnecessary one. Then, the system will be working well. The dignity will be saved. You had better occupy your duties. Do not distract yourself. Your destination: WORK. It is your one and only challenge and desire.

Rubbish! Who would want to live like that? Who could? You will be surprised, I promise. You will be upset, astonished, confused... and maybe you will gain some knowledge about the things which have been any misteries to you to date. This is the most important issue, I think - getting out of this movie. Deriving cues.

The thread of love connects everything. It destroys the silence and the order. And it builds a new world. It creates a new reality. Do you think that in that utterly new world would be no place for a new order and a new silence? I cannot promise you that you will receive any answer. Everything depends on your sensitiveness. I believe in you. As much as I believe in love.

8 nominations. 0 awards. Starring: Emma Thompson, Anthony Hopkins. Director: James Ivory. Music by: Richard Robbins.
The music will touch your heartstrings.
P.S. I have a little surprise. You will see it tomorrow. A completely different movie. Have a nice weekend! 

Sunday, 26 April 2015

I'm there... inside your stamp album.


Let me help you. Step down. Here we go! The drum major's widow! She's worn his coat since the day he died. The horse's head has lost an ear! That's the florist laughing. He has crinkly eyes. In the bakery window, lollipops. Smell that! They're giving out melon slices! Sugarplum, ice cream! We're passing the park butcher. Ham, 79 francs. Spareribs, 45! Now the cheese shop. Picadors are 12.90. Cabecaus 23.50. A baby's watching a dog that's watching the chickens. Now we're at the kiosk by the metro. I'll leave you here. Bye! 

I have decided to stay in the french ambience. I wonder if you like it! But I am sure this quote told you everything. Today, I am chosing a movie which I did not appreciated after the first time I had watched it. How could I be such an ignoramus and a fool? I do not know to date. Only one thing is certain: Amélie, I will always love you. <3

Surprise! The first motion picture that is really full of happiness! Funny! Simple (if you want, I can find something... tough... hm...)! Join Amélie in her life journey! It hink you all have watched it a thousand times at least. So I do not want to make you bored because of my strange deductions (not funny at all). I am just throwing few adorable quotes below. Enjoy.
It's better to help people than garden gnomes. 
Any normal girl would call the number, meet him, return the album and see if her dream is viable. It's called a reality check. The last thing Amélie wants.  

Times are hard for dreamers. 

With a prompter in every cellar window whispering comebacks, shy people would have the last laugh.

Old Man at the Two Windmills: Still, true love does exist.
Suzanne: I know. After 30 years behind a bar, I'm an expert. I'll even give you the recipe. Take two regulars, mix them together and let them stew. It never fails.  

I'm busy ;)

5 nominations. And only nominations. It is unbelievable, isn't it? Maybe Academy does not, but almost everyone appreciate Le fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain. Any conclusions? 

Listen to the music! Watch once again! SMILE! You can do everything what you set your mind to!

Sunday, 19 April 2015

You are becoming obtrusive, Mrs. Pigeon...


Things will go on as they have done up until now. They'll go from bad to worse. Things will go on, and then one day it will all be over. 

Amour is probably the best motion picture about love which I have ever seen. Even though it does not touch me personally. But it shows me many things which any other film does not. 'What things?' you are suppossed to ask. Strength and weakness, youth and senescence, love and animus, life and death. A lot of contradictions, as you can see. But are there any antinomies? I have reservations. These terms are rather couples of options of some cases. And they do not stay in an opposition. They mix each other. They like each other, I guess. They really love being in the same place at the same time.
Anne (Emmanuelle Riva) and Georges (Jean-Louis Trintignant) are marriage. She was piano teacher, he loved listening to her. Until everything was going on the right way, they were like white on rice. But just one trouble can shatter all of rests which we build our whole life. Particularly, disease.

Anne: What would you say if no one came to your funeral?
Georges: Nothing, presumably.

I was really moved. And I was shaking during a lot of scenes of this movie. I tried to change into one of the characters and make up my mind what I would do. And I knew that whatever they would do, I will be admiring them. Because of their sensibility, perhaps. Or maybe because I cannot imagine myself inside the situation like that. 

There I was, crying out loud in the courtyard, and I told him the whole drama to the bitter end.

And here I am, encouraging you to watch and appreciate: the film and weakness hidden inside strength, life hidden inside death.

5 nominations (Michael Haneke was really proud of himself), 1 award (Best Foreign Language Film). When you finish watching just think about the equability of The Academy's choice. It is doubtful, isn't it?

I did not mention. This is FRENCH movie. French means INCREDIBLY COOL.

Monday, 6 April 2015

Amber & Coral

Marvin's Room

Most of the time I just keep to myself. I think like what it would be like to be... someone else. 

Easter Monday! Today, I decided to choose a movie which shows the power of family. It is really optimistic. It tells you when you have some problems with any members of your family, find some force in yourself and fight with your imperfections. Or change things which you consider as your strongest sides to be more open to your friends.

Lee and Bessie are quite happy sisters. They are happy in their own. And in their own ways. During watching it is impossible to not compare their lives. Their kinds of feeling about reality are so different.

What happens when two worlds collide after twenty years? And what can fix the wastes? Who is Marvin? And why is his room so important? Follow the flickers. Discover pretty better common world with the characters. Just get better!

I promise you will laugh when you see aunt Ruth (Gwen Verdon). There you have many reasons to smile. Only positive reactions are expectable!

Meryl Streep, Diane Keaton (nomination for best lead actress), Leonardo DiCaprio and Robert De Niro are the best labels of this movie.

Only one nomination... What can I say... What a misery!  But Reachel Portman, who composed the music to this movie, received the Oscar in the same year for the other film. It is uplifting.

Spend this day with your family, smile and think positive! Best wishes!

Friday, 27 March 2015

The Lady with The Little Boy

The Reader

...So I stopped talking about it. There's no need to talk, because the truth of what one says lies in what one does.

Today is gonna be the day, you can read about a reader. ;) Yesterday I watched that movie the third time. And the third time it blew my mind. I am always forgetting the plot. I remember only few crucial (or not) moments. So I am always surpised in the same way in the middle of this film. What can I say... It is the picture for people with strong  nerves. Why? Because sometimes we are not able to understand certain things. We do not know how we should judge the actions. But shall we mark? I think we had better try to understand and forgive.

Sometimes the memory of happiness cannot stay true because it ended unhappily. 

That is what this movie is about. It is about oblivion, forgiveness, strength and incredibility of love. The main characters have a lot of faith, but troubles too. They seem to live like Romeo and Juliet. Two lives full of forbidden love, unconsciousness, death and nascence. It sounds like a great recipe for bane or it looks like a phoenix rising out of the ashes. :D I know!

But all what we can do is take care of someone we love.

I do not want to spoil your watching so I cannot describe you the plot. It is really tough to tell you about the sense of this movie when I should not give you any examples. Grrr. I have so many thoughts in my mind.

It is set in Germany, 13 years after world war II. She is... He is Michael Berg. She is... He is 15. She is a... He is a student. Is there any place for the relationship like that? Who should forgive and why? Make up your mind and just watch if you want to know! Hahaha, it sounds like a perfect ad, doesn't it?

It is not an average, boring love story. It is not a next bitter-sweet symphony. I swear.
DOUBT. SHAME. - I forgot about these two words. You will see, how important they are. Keep these clues!
5 nominations... and... I wanna cry... 1 Academy Award. I think it has been the biggest mistake made by Academy so far.
Listen to the music, watch the trailer and finally, watch this film! Make me sure: It is amazing, isn't it?

Sunday, 22 March 2015

Oh, dear Jackson...

The Help

Then she tries to apologize for the earlier conversation that she knows Aibileen heard, and she asks if she ever wishes things were different.

Hi! Today, I want to share with you one of the most positive movies ever. I really love it! It is about relations, friendship particularly. It is about few domestic servants. And it is about the racism in America, but it refers to the reality of the whole world. And it is not showed as an endless evil. The director, the scriptwriter (Tate Taylor) and the actresses (Viola Davis, Octavia Spencer, Emma Stone) show us, that we can change the reality which is wrong and unfair. We can be happy. We can make our dreams come true! Maybe our lives are not the simplest ones, but our destiny is in our hands! Even though we are expected to do something, because our families have been doing it for generations, we live now! Not 50 years ago. Our better way is not erased. It is still alive. And we should try to keep it alive.
Ohhh, I love Viola Davis and Octavia Spencer! They are such great actresses! They make me cry because of their sense of humour! And they make me cry because of their desires! I really adore the music!
This movie will make you hateful to some people, but you will be head over heels in love with the others, I promise!

The Help was nominated in 4 categories, it won in 1. I really don't know, why. I watched all of the movies nominated to the Best Motion Picture award and The Help was simply the best. It was multipurpose. It was just amazing. Enjoy the music (by Thomas Newman): ;)

Saturday, 14 March 2015

Once upon a time...

Beasts of the Southern Wild

Once there was a Hushpuppy...

The most dazzling form of magical realism. The best truthful story which I have ever seen. The most incredible narration! Hushpuppy was being acted by Quvenzhané Wallis (she was only 5 or 6!). She has only father, because her mother has abandoned her. The daddy brings up her, but... he has the one and only aim: his daughter must survive.
- Who is the man!? (daddy)

- I am the man! (Hushpuppy)
The charming, moving story about love which is inseparable part of each family. Love can be difficult to understand, it can be... you know... it can be expressed in different ways. But it is always the clearest feeling. And even though we will lose it for sure (because of death, war or disagreement), the time, when we keep it is the best reason to keep ourselves alive.

Once there was a Hushpuppy...
And she just said: The whole universe depends on everything fitting together just right. If one piece busts, even the smallest piece... the entire universe will get busted.
She expressed the whole truth about our world and our lives in two sentences. Such an unbelievable irony!
When I watch this movie... I just cry and smile in turns.
The young, strong girl realises all of the fears which enclose her and she faces up to them. She treats her youth as an adventure. But she does not forget about real world. She invides us to enjoy the silence and the biggest noice as well. She shows us how we can keep in touch with nature.
Ox appears in my life every day. The glaciers melt. And despite it I find a lot of happiness in every moment and each place. 

Nominated in 4 categories: Best Motion Picture, Best Directing, Best Original Screenplay and the last but not least - Best Actress in Leading Role (and the youngest in history!). This movie did not receive even one Academy Award.

But my view is that this is the real scandal this movie was not nominated in categorie called: the best original music!

Saturday, 7 March 2015

Mrs. Dalloway is back!

Mrs. Dalloway said she would buy the flowers herself.

It is not any surprising thing this sentence is known by most of people in the world. Writing the book called The hours which gets from Mrs. Dalloway is not shocking too. What about the film The hours directed by Stephen Daldry? The same thing. Call it magic if you cannot believe these three creations are just masterpieces.

           The hours

   9 nominations but only 1(!) award. What was wrong? Yes, it is uplifting that it got 1 award at least... BUT... this film is magnificent!
It is set in 3 different places and in 3 different lives. What makes these lives similar? A way of thinking. A common mind. The key to understanding this movie is looking for the signs. Staring in gestures. Just let loose yourself in the music. Just let your imagination take the images to its own. Try to smell the flowers. Try to be all of the characters in one moment. You have just heard they ways of thinking are similar. Oh, is it not possible? Now, you know the reason why this movie is extraordinary. It shows everyone receives the world in his own. Everyone treats people as he thinks he should. Sometimes we decide to leave our relatives, our families, our friends, our lives. But sometimes we decide to live even though we know it is tough. And very often we live in such different worlds. I mean times but environments too. My life is similar to your life but I am still myself. And you are still yourself. I suppose we are often experienced by the same situations but we react in different ways. OK. Too much information, too many digressions. Remember: do not be so serious as me! And I swear to don't be so serious anymore! Just have fun! Enjoy! Oh, of course, I have not mentioned, so I must do it now: the acting of Meryl Streep, Nicole Kidman (Oscar), Julianne Moore and Ed Harris is awesome! !!!!!!!!!!