The ultimate decision?

I have a sort of a brainstorm on my own. I am trying to erease all of my doubts. I feel like I decided and there is nothing to have reservations about, but... life is difficult in principle and I want to make it much tougher. Does it have any sense?

Of course, it has! The whole thing we are supposed to do is to follow our dreams and to make them come true. Even though we are exhausted  and the one and only thing we want to do is to sleep through our lives. Do not give up!

I have one decision to make... Which of these two songs could be better for me to sing. Which one is more demanding or which one is more moving? Or maybe... you know any musical songs..? But not 'Singing in the rain', please. ;) Can you recommend them? I must make a repertoire.

A repertoire? For what? The answer is very simple, but not obvious. I decided to take part in the exams to the drama schools. A few ones. There are many great drama schools in Poland, but they are not in the city I live in.

I must practise a lot. Those exams are so demanding. If I want to succeed, I need to learn many texts by heart, work out, sing a lot and practise doing a splits, even. So it is nothing shocking for my friends when they visit me and see me leaning against the wall and yelling, muffling or breathing aloud. I am completely tired because of working out day by day... I have no strength to do anything more. But who said that all is going to be simple? Dreams hurt.

I wake up every day feeling better. I know I am closer and closer to my purpose, step by step. And I also feel better, because I take care of my spine. I can see only advantages!

I must try to practise some melodies from my notes... I hate it. Notes are like little dark monsters, for me. I do not understand them. They scream to me something, but I cover up my ears and I hum a childish song. Bad, bad notes!

Out of the blue

I was wondering such a long time what I should write about. And I have yet to crystalize the subject of my thoughts. But... Today I have discovered one thing which made me utterly obsessed with that. That good has inspired me so I am feeling like I can start creating something. I do not know really, what. I know only one thing: I am on the new way to my brand new life which I have been dreaming about. Please, keep your fingers crossed for me.

I am sure you all know her. She is back. Sensitive, honest, strong and vulnerable. You can dislike her music, her voice... yes, this is your privilege to think on your own way. But you cannot ignore the lyrics of her songs.

She fills my desolation with a kind of hope allowing me to forget, forgive (even myself) and make up my mind to do what I have always wanted to do. This is my breakthrough and I desire to make use of that. If not today, when?

Remember to not postpone your dreams. Do not delay yourself! Work harder and harder. Dreams make you stronger and stronger. If one thing is less important than the second one, leave it behind. The crucial thing I realized recently is that I am my own creator. When I want to do something in the right way, I must focus myself  on that. That is how it goes. Nothing surprising! Be like Adele. Be like you. Rule the world. But do not do any harm to the others. Have a nice weekend! :)